dunno wat to write

2nd day in OR
so far so good

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penat sgt
i'll story mory later

always the 'kampung girl' at heart

i love balik kampung
such good times
when i was 5, i stayed with my then-still-single aunty and both my grandparents
since i was their third grandchild, enuf said dat i was dearly spoilt
morning bath was prepared --> campur air panas lagi
my grandma always tot me around, i was never left behind
trips, weddings, ceramah etc
i remember she always attended this mengajar sessions at one of the masjid
i always go with her because i like the market place set up outside the mosque
she let me buy foods my dad wouldn't approve like etok hehe

since my aunty teaches at kindergarden, i automatically enrolled into the class
i love the breaks where we have biskut jagung cicah teh
such simplicity
ouh, did i mentioned dat our kindergarden is in mosque compound n next to cemetery?
and yeah, our monthly activity tolong bersih kubur n masjid
hehe menarik tak?

last weekend when i go back, my nenek get me my fav breakfast --> pulut hitam
similar to pulut pagi dat u eat with grated coconut n ikan kering but this one campur gula melaka i think mase msk so it's dark n sweet n u just eat it with grated coconut
sedappppppp sangatttttttt

er...er...er...dunno?

family is going back to kampung today
so i ask for half day n manage to mengelak from presenting during CME
haha giler ape nk i present depan seme docs n specialist yg handal2 tu
dh la x de background ICU training, duk situ pon baru one week
undergrad medicine pon x abes lg haha

today would be my last day in ICU
gonna miss dat for sure
the cases dat i encounter so far is very interesting
i probably put sum of it up here later

next week i'll be starting in OR *yeay!*
hopefully i can practice sum skills
n watch cool surgeries too!!!

too much of a good thing is GOOD!!

i've been salivating over it since i first spotted it in Calgary
i was overjoyed to know dat it made it's way to Malaysia just before i got home for summer
n now i can get it in my hometown
-fuyooo...kuala teganu dh ade mcD sekarang-
so one fine afternoon during lunch break from the ICU
i drive to the restaurant n order this



two all beef patties, special sauce, lettuce, cheese, pickels, onions on a sesame seed bun

first bite n i'm in heaven
suffice to say, i was sleepy during the afternoon round

I C U, U C I?

I'll be in the ICU for the whole week yo!

ICU kinda cool
no need for white coat
u can't really take history from patient since they r either unconscious or intubated or sleeping most of the time -i hate taking history but 80% of diagnosis is from history, yes?-
aircond is at full blast-->heaven!
not many patients to handle at one time, there's only 14 beds all together
u would think the rounds would be short but na'ah
it's ok anyway~

first day of 'work'

it was a good first day
my dad is on a leave so he drives me n my mom to work
feels like a first day of school, both parents sending u off hehe
stop for a breakfast of nasi dagang *kak ana jgn jeles* before starting my first day of 'work'

i was sent to ICU
apparently anaest ppl dun only put ppl to sleep n wake them up later
they manage the ICU as well hehe i didn't know dat
H.O.D wasn't anywhere on sight so i just tag along the specialist in charge n the M.Os doing rounds

guess who i bump into in ICU, supposedly joining the rounds?
lil miss Camy!
must have been forever since we last see each other kan?
think the last time was before you fly off n now u already working!
how time flies~

the specialist is so damn good a teacher
i even manage to suprise myself answering a question here n there
haha

had a lil chat wit H.O.D after the afternoon rounds about wat i want to do for the 3 weeks
i ask if i can be allowed to some procedural skills n it was more of exposure kinda thing since i have no clue as to wat anest is all about
he then drew the whole plan of wat i'll be doing n the objectives i should accomplished by end of my elective *aiyak*
i was put under supervision of Dr Rozi, the specialist i was tagging along earlier
all in all, i think it was a good start

better doze off soon
work starts at 8 am daily *blergh*

so it began

tomorrow will be the first day of 6 weeks summer electives *blerghhh*

doing 3 weeks in anest dep n another 3 weeks in surgery

am alone

buhsan.buhsan.

but at least i get to drive the car everyday

i'll be mati kutu anyway just staying home

no one around

buhsan.buhsan.

we'll see how it goes

i might attend the full course

or skip it

growing up toys

baby jack jack!
windu la same kamu!
wonder if u still exist in sum quiet corner at home?
dat lil sis of mine bkn pandai nk jaga my stuffs elok2
erghhh!

reminds me of all my stuffed toys n dolls
not dat i own many of them
mayb i'll hunt for them to see if they still around...

ring me!

darlinksku sekalian
i am reachable at 013-2659211

dh seminggu blk br sibuk nk cr sim card mesia
haha konon kaya roaming Rogers

yes..saya masih pilih celcom
loyal customer nih *celcom sila bagi bonus byk2 yer*

sila ringankan jemari anda menelefon or sms saya
nnt kiter boley hangout together-gether ok?
kite gosip smpai pengsan!

just had this one...

susah nk parking pon susah nk parking la
janji dapat



well worth every cent of RM6.30

puas ati definitely

enroute

so here's the reiterate of my solo adventure
the route : Calgary --> LA -->Taipei --> Singapore --> Kuala Lumpur --> Terengganu
total time traveled including transit : +/- 30 hrs (yup, 30 long hours)

1st leg of journey: Calgary --> LA @ 1910hrs, Fri 13th

i was at the airport since 1700hrs lg
all those security check n US custom clearance horror stories
better be safe than sorry kan
so i manage to get my lugagges checked in all the way to KL *how very convenient*
n they have strong guys helping with bags, saving my vertebrae
i sailed thru US custom n security check *phewww*
Calgary sky was crying as if dun wan me to leave *cesss, perasan*
flight got delayed, cutting my transit time in LA wee bit short
i got to witness sunset on air and it was very mesmerizing *magical*
the first sight of big LA city excites me to no end
i arrived at 2nd terminal of LAX n have to transfer to Tom Bradley International Terminal
suffice to say it's quite a walking distance n quite confusing
imagine, 1st time on US soil n alone plak tuh
Tom Bradley is so buruk i think airport Terengganu lg cantekkk okkkkk? n there are soooo many ppl!
i have to queue like almost 2 hrs just to get my boarding pass
others mostly checking in their bags which i found funny coz u have to check in ur bag at the counter then bring it to the security check n get it scanned then bring it back to the counter to drop it off, complicate eyh?
pastu trus boarding sbb security check line is like forever
apa taknyer, seme pon nk kan take off
jaket, laptop, even kasut pon kna bukak

the real journey begans : LA --> Taipei --> Singapore @ 0055hrs, Sat 14th

from the boarding gate naik bus which takes all the passenger to the aircraft
interesting, no?
Singapore Airlines almost lives up to my expectation
seat is very comfy
KrisWorld sgt best!
food not so much, i still like MAS better
but worth the price i paid
the 13 hrs to Taipei is filled with Krisworld n food n aimless merayau around

We arrived at Taipei in the wee hrs of morning
shops br nk bukak
sgt byk LeSportSac smpai dh rambang mata
then looking at the tag ribu ribu won
aiseh paiseh, mls nk convert la
plus i need to save money if i'm ever going to Bandung later
so one hr stop, i just walk from one end of terminal to another
buhsan..buhsan

another 9 hrs to Singapore
i slept most of the way
when i finally touched down, dh half crancky sbb penat
diri rase cam serabai jer
n i still have 2 more flights *ergh*

i braced myself for the heat
mmg panas!!!
Singapore Changi is heaven
byk shops n free internet!!!!
i'm in good hands later for the journey back to Calgary since i have to overnight in Changi
sempat lg rembat perfume before boarding flight to KL hehe

the almost last flight : Singapore --> KL @ 1245hrs, Sun 15th

I'm watch out from the windows n saw it
my homeland!

weih, KL lg pns dr Singapore!

with trolley full of bags which the 'gentlemanly' airport workers tolong tengok n tolong comment 'besarnyer bag!' jer -sum things nvr change- i walked thru to the arrival hall
went straight to checked in for the last flight

with fair warning from my mum regarding the overlimit of my luggages, still ralat jugak la bile kna charge rm150
the lady asked if i wanted to pay for it
duh! dah tu, nk tinggal my bag kat airport?
such a waste to just bring 20kg when north america flights allowes up to 46kg, right?

next flight won't be until later in evening
so went for Kenny Rogers n lil freshen up session thanks to him

the one dat got me home : KL --> Terengganu @ 750pm, Sun 15th

it's already night so all i can see is the lights
the moment the plane touches the ground, i was soo relieved dat i finally reached home
wohot! airport br Terengganu very impressive
siap ade international flights section lg
dh ade dat tunnel so no need to walk on the tarmac anymore *yeay*

getting the lugagges seems like eternity
seme org tgk..2 really big bags, 3 carry-ons, one skinny girl

when i walk thru the arrival gate, the first face i saw was abah n ummi's *happy smpai rase nk nangis*
salam salam, peluk peluk, cium cium
then my lil bro comes running n the first comment he makes was
'kakak x berubah pon, same jer'
haha...i wonder how he thinks i gonna look after one yr abroad

it's good to be HOME with LOVED ONES

touched down

2 words

FREAKING HOT!!!!!

1 feeling

SMUGLY HAPPY!!!!!

~I'M HOME~
nothing is on top of dat

*huge huge grin*

see you in August!

exam just finished

am currently doing last min packing and cleaning

prep-ing for the trip

in few hours....

bye bye Calgary

hello Malaysia!

and LA, Taipei, Singapore too



sweet ride home

will try to updet if i can get free internet access in any of the stops along the way
see u guys in Malaysia!

itchy fingers

i have diagnosed myself with
itchy fingers nk main game pre exam syndrome

wat is it is i have this overwhelming urge to not study and play wateva game (mainly computer games since i only pandai how to play these) when i'm suppose to study
weird thing is the symptoms only intensify when the exam is so near like a few days before sitting for the paper n miraculously vanishes when the invigilators announced it's time to put down the pencils and i'm free of exam!

i know, i am not alone in this
i know Puteri too suffers from the same syndrome, at least during IMU years

erghhhh!!!!
tulungsssss!!!!
i so wanna play games
*itchy itchy fingers*

i still haven't finished Chocolatier 2
n i found several new games on the net and already download their cracked full version
aihhh have to fight against it
have to say TAK NAK to games

princess big day

to Miss PUTERI ZATIL



HAPPY 24th BDAY DEAR!!!

have a good one~

would love to attend ur bday bash but Calgary and Auckland isn't exactly next door neighbour
ur pressie will have to wait k?

hugsies and kissies
CT

keep on fighting

getir times ahead
2 days to finish all Endocrine
*cries*
Endocrine is a lot!!!

you can do it, Dalilah!!

p/s: have u heard the RapidKL "let us moves you" ad on radio?

hahaha
not going anywhere lah i must say

*gruk gruk*
craving for laksam
or laksa kuah putih
=((

distraction!

i know i should be studying
but my mind keep on focusing on the nk balik kampung!

like which baju should i wear on da flight
n which handbag and shoes to match?
which outfit i wanna bring as a change before continuing to Terengganu?
wat else do i wanna bring home?
should i make a list so dat i wont end up in airport without the *God forbids* travel doc or tickets etc? -i had a dreams few days ago dat this happened-

ouh, i can't wait to see how my bro would react when i give him the psp then later tell him, it's only a temporary pinjam *evil laugh*
heheh no la, i'll give it to him as a gift
lucky lucky lil sucker!

havent pack my carry on or kemas the room dat has been my study room, dining room and bedroom for the last few weeks
i still need to do my laundry n change the bedsheets n all
and i only have 4 hrs post exam!!!

good start of the day?

seems like they really like oink oink for breakfast

at Tim Horton's the other day i ask them wat do they put in the breakfast muffin
egg and bacon or egg and sausage
wat kind of sausage i ask out of curiosity
erm...pork

then this one time i went to McD for breakfast
also the same thing

and A&W too

so have make extra special request
can i have the egg and sausage muffin or wateva without the sausage?

ohhhh i so wanted to have big, juicy beef burger
ohhhh Double Big Mac and Double Cheeseburger and Junior Whooper *salivates*

ohhhh burger special double Abang Ramly
aku rinduuu itewww terutama skali!!!!

updates on Saturday

lalala~

i did my 1st P.O.P cast yesterday

lalala~

stay in school until 10 pm (on FRIDAY!)

lalala~

study is going slow but going nonetheless

lalala~

going to Guess outlet tommorow to spend my gift card

lalala~

start to solek2 the psp n brought few games too

lalala~

p/s: i had cast on my forearm for like 10 mins n cannot stand it anymore. can't imagine how is it for ppl who had cast on for weeks and months *gaps* so, better not get any broken limbs ppl!

not too soon

this time next Friday, i'll be on the plane enroute home
7 MORE FREAKING DAYS!!!!!
and 6 more days to exam
*yes, as small as possible coz i'm in denial so dat i dun freak out*

can't believe i've finished my 1st yr alreadi
won't be long before the clerkship n graduation n then real world!!!
erkkkk~

can't believe dat it's been almost a yr since i left home
how is it back home i wonder?
grant there will be a lot of changes around but will some things just stay the same?
will it make me remember?
if it does, will it still hurt?
or will a new good change is bound to happen?

in amidst of excited to go back n meet loved ones n the prospect of traveling alone thru places i've nvr been before
i dislike the packing n preparation part n somehow reluctant to go back n face wat i've left behind n hope nvr to deal with
*sighhhhh*

the mightiest sword

one word i find ridiculous --> FOREVER

forever is a very very long time so i find it funny when ppl promising forever to their significant other...u dun even know if u gonna woke up next morning, how can u promise forever? dun even use it figuratively, it's not romantic, it's hurtful when u leave

one word i try not to use *much* --> HATE

it's a very strong word i tell u, so most of the time i try to use the word dun like or similar to it. i reserve the word hate for things i really2 can't stand anymore. so when i use it, it means i really really dislike wateva it is dat i'm referring to (read: i can't even stand the slight mention of it) so trust me when i say u dun want me to hate u

one word i realise can mean so much but so little too --> LOVE

when said the first time, sounds magical. i love you, the three not so little word u said to the one u thought u love at the moment or u've been waiting to hear it from him/her.
when said too often, meaningless can be wat it defines
when nvr said, reality can be denied easily
it's a promise, so be a man/woman and honour ur promise
it'll hurt so badly when u don't

pleasure-business cocktail

try having group discussion in a dim-lighted bar surrounded by loud music n stank of alcohols

try seating not close to the preceptor n ur laptop battery doesn't even last 1/2 hr n all ur notes is on ur computer

wat a 'fun' field trip eh? *sarcasm*

i heard tmr will be another 'let's get a drink n discuss the cases!'
if dat so then i'm not going
ponteng pon ponteng la

i dun have extra time to bermesra with urologist
not when exam next week n i'm wayyyyyy behind my own study schedule

red hot alert!

look at wat i got today!



it's for my bro *lucky boy!* but for now, i'm gonna use it first
n to make worth of my money this shall be my slavery device
the next time i need my bro to do sumthing i will go like this
"i already brought u psp, now go do this and this"
*evil laugh*

now dat i godek2 it a bit
dh jatuh cinta la plak
how lah? i'm suppose to get this for him
initially i nvr thought to buy one for me cos it has to many button to tekan2 when playing the game, i nvr master the similar ps2 during the long holidays before
but now, i find it not so bad la
oh well, i can always bg pinjam n then take it back
my money wat?
*evil laugh*

yes, i'm a nice but evil big sister

it's in my nature

according to some ppl, a mole on the feet denotes a very suka berjalan2 kind of ppl

must be why i can't even hold it for a day

so much for strict house arrest

sila denda diri sendiri +_+

weirdo me

i let u in one of my secret

i can develop a very strong dislike toward a person without any reason at all, without the person doing anything to me

yes, i can be psycho laidat

the dislike meter? i can't even stand the thought of dat person n i usually pick on all the flaws i can lay my hands on

sounds so keji i know

but no worries, it's transient n resolve on its own
i notice it is sex-biased, the one with penis falls victim more than the one without
i also notice it happened during when my hormones runs amok
stupid stupid hormones for messing wit my mind